The 3,840th step

Sometimes a very casual decision can change your life completely. And it just did to me. Not that it was a life altering moment but yes, I am happy that what I said casually as a “Yes” made me feel good today. The year is ending or shall I say we are already looking into the following year to come, I am greatly pleased that it ended on a more spiritual note.

They say when you plan a trip to Thirumala, it’s only upon Lord Balaji’s wish whether or not you can make it to His seven hills… And He did accept my casual yes with a great spirit. It was my wife’s wish to go walking uphill from the foot of the Thirumala mountains. I was more than happy to be beside her and support her cause. And it paid well and how!

The weather was in our favor and so was our health. I just had recovered from a bad cough and cold and the air I breathed more than flushed out the sick toxins out of my system.

It’s not that easy to take off to the steps until the end of the hill and let me seriously tell you it’s not that tough either. Actually when I was getting various tips on how to manage your state while waling on the blessed steps, my mind was running elsewhere… The animals greeting us (Deer, birds, monkeys et all) and the nature at its most beautiful and how I will not ignore them while I set my eyes on the wonderful journey. And yes it indeed was the most bright day and cheerful night… The chill breeze kept on blowing so as to take off our stress and calm us down.

The first 1200 steps are the most rigorous. You almost feel that your body and the steps are projected at almost 30 degrees so you can Imagine walking against your body’s centre of gravity (And seriously it is not that tough as I have put it here). Once you reach the end of these steps which is Kaligopuram, You will be given a receipt with your face scanned at the same time. This is your token for free Divya darshan which is valid for the next 24 hours. Here on the steps are pretty straight and very casual as if your are walking in a park. Yes, it’s that normal. You pass through a deer park. You pass through the road almost two times. You end up seeing a huge statue of Hanumanji welcoming you which intimidates you immediately. It’s a welcome blessing at a time when you are having mixed feelings and a a heart that’s pumping tons of blood into your system. Wait. Chill. Relax and look up to him and admire the way the lord stands tall in front of you. It’s that magical!

After another thousand steps or so you are sure to find people going amazing lengths to pay their respects to the lord. The next 486 steps are quite steep I must say! You basically take a short break break between each 5-10 steps. The 30 degree is probably lowered to almost 15-20 and that’s where your body wants to give up but your heart and mind keeps you charged up… There are people who walk with their knees bent across each of these steps. I then wondered why am I cribbing walking on my feet. It actually lifts your spirits higher. As they say “Faith moves mountains” and I felt it today.

There are another set of people who apply the traditional haldi (Turmeric) and kumkum (a red powder which most Indian women apply on their forehead) paste on each and every step. I mean each and every step. Right from the first one until the 3840th step. It’s not easy to bend each step and apply these as you walk. Try for 10 steps and your back will not listen to you anymore! And on your way you will find people who walk all the way from as far as Chennai upto the lords entrance just to see a glimpse of HIM! Faith. Keep yours. It really keeps you grounded and sane!

So many things came flashing down my mind as I was looking up to the finishing point. How my life was last year, the early 2011, how things spiralled suddenly out of control, back home to India for good. My friends, my ex colleagues, my school and college mates. The people I knew. The people I would never want to meet. The people I would love to meet. The things that I want to do. The things my heart would yearn…

Give yourself a good five hours to complete this magical journey. Introspect. Speak to Gods. Pray a lot. Go with full faith.

I went to sleep that night at full peace with myself inspite of the ache my body was trying to tell me. I dreamt that I had the most up close darshan of the lord himself. As if some one arranged a personal service for my whole family. And a big smile flashed across my wife and kids face. Something which I would always love to see (Well, who doesn’t?)

The crowd and the line was large and only growing in large numbers. Literally unstoppable. But once we entered the line, we managed to be out well within two hours which is very short considering our past experiences. But yes, here I must say… everytime one goes to Tirupati, he has a different experience each time. It goes beyond words and expressions. And today was another day, another time, same place and a whole new meaning to spirituality.

You know once you have done with this and once you are in the queue to get your special darshan from the Lord… It’s another easy four to five hours (This is a most common time you need to allocate to get your turn) Sometimes you get really lucky and get reduced hours like how we had got which lasted a mere two hours.

And once you are inside the temple and a glance for just about 2-5 secs max is all you get. You will know the worth of all that you had been through only to get those special 2-5 secs to see HIM and seek HIS blessings.

And after the whole episode was over, done with our short and quick darshan of the great Lord… I was thinking would I still go there barefoot, tired and literally on my knees to get that special glimpse?

My heart says, Yes… please do… That 3,840th step is worth the first one you take towards HIM.

Govinda… Govinda!

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Life is what you make it

Let me tell you a story.
A situation that I have actually witnessed during my growing years. I have seen enough such stories around me but this one remains fresh in my mind even today!

There was this guy quite the prosperous kind. He had a great job, lovely kids, a decent house and of course a loving wife. They were one big, happy and contented family.
But there was one problem.
This guy was an incurable alcoholic.
Then something suddenly happened!!!

Let me narrate you another story running in parallel
There was this guy of a more prosperous kind. He had a good job, lovely kids, a decent house and of course a loving wife. He was always based out of the country earning supposedly well. They too were one big, happy and contented family.
But there was one more guy in the family. Who used to take care of the family in the absence of the father. He was quite an old man
The wife had some health problems
Then something suddenly happened!!!

In story1; the guy fell off the train and like a pack of dominoes I saw the entire family falling apart. It’s one sad ending that I will always remember as life’s one lesson!

In story2; the mom dies. The kids are stranded. The father still has to hold on to his job. He couldn’t be with the kids. The old man finally takes care of the kids and hold them together. Raises them well

What do we learn from these two stories?
Yes, life is a bitch and a worse one. There’s no doubt about it. It’s like that black soot that goes into each nook and corner of your body and makes u weak within. You just cant escape life. You have to face it.
And while you do, you have to be either strong or give into it. This exactly what happened with the people in story1 and story2. While the people in story1 inhaled all the soot they can… the people in story2 wore masks and in their own way fought life.

I can’t remember a single person alive in story1 but the people in story2 survived, settled and live life in their own terms. They fought. They had a guiding angel. And for the sake of argument one person in story1 could have been a guide for this family but they chose otherwise.

If you give into life… you succumb to everything. I wish atleast the people around them were supportive enough which could have diverted their chain of events. Actually that’s the problem with our society. We pass judgement too quickly and our conclusions are more quicker than our understanding of the situations. If only, the family sat together and put their issues in front of them.

Let me ask you two Questions

Question 1:
If you knew a woman who was pregnant, who had 8 kids already, three who were deaf, two who were blind, one mentally retarded, and she had syphilis, would you recommend that she have an abortion?

Read the next question before looking at the response for this one.

Question 2:
It is time to elect a new world leader, and only your vote counts.
Here are the facts about the three candidates. Who would you vote for?

Candidate A
Associates with crooked politicians, and consults with astrologist. He’s had two mistresses. He also chain smokes and drinks 8 to 10 martinis a day.

Candidate B
He was kicked out of office twice, sleeps until noon, used opium in college and drinks a quart of whiskey every evening.

Candidate C
He is a decorated war hero. He’s a vegetarian, doesn’t smoke, drinks an occasional beer and never cheated on his wife.

Which of these candidates would be our choice?

Here are the answers…
Candidate A is Franklin D. Roosevelt.
Candidate B is Winston Churchill .
Candidate C is Adolph Hitler.

And, by the way, on your answer to the abortion question:

If you said YES, you just killed Beethoven.

Life is what you make of it. And successful people are those who stand tall even in all adversities…

Go on… have a great life. You are truly blessed to have one!

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Start something new

So?
Had a tough day in office?
Boss’s attitude is bad is it? He’s not what he used to be…
Old times were better is it?
You best friend, colleague was just fired is it?
No bonuses this year?
No increments too?
You received your month’s salary late is it?
And what about your promotion promises?

How many such cases we have seen right in front of our eyes.

You are planning a sober year is it?

I know, I too rocked and rolled last year. But lessons well learnt this year…

You know what tough times are ahead. Nothing’s gonna come to you. You will have to go and seek them out. All on your own. Times are not what it was like before. I am hearing more sad stories than ever. If one gets going easily for the next few years he’s done it. That’s the situation these days.

You are given an hour maximum to wind up, gather yourself and leave the cubicle… Do they know what goes on in the mind of the employee? Do they care in first place? Ok, our next 2-3 months are secured as a favor by the company… but you know what that’s just a blink and miss and bingo! You have many days left at the end of the money!

You also have had your fair share of searches both with the employers and the people who source out prospects for them… It’s a different story altogether and we will dwell with those issues later.

When nothing seem to work out… something is being planned for you. Consciously or unconsciously… It surely does. That’s the cycle of life. We all have seen the worst of situations but why not search for that ray of hope?

Learn to use your traits. See what you are good at. Find a partner with whom you can jam with. Write a new story. Create a new chapter. Explore the side which you were always reluctant. Hear what you want deep inside.

Plan your actions well. Prepare your mind ahead. Train yourself for the worst (You have seen enough by now!) Pray a lot.

Seek. Dig deep. Bring out your best self. For a change let your heart do the talking.

This 2012… Start something new.

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The unanswered question!!!!

Dear All

I read the following article in the morning and it has left me something to think about. This has been nagging my mind throughout the day and I feel like sharing the same with you all!!!!

No doubt that people need meanings to everything and for that they need to ask questions. Each person is questioned by life; and he/she can only answer to life by answering for his/her own life.

For that he/she is to live as others’ answer or experiences may not be as meaningful as you may be expecting.
There is great meaning in life for those who are willing to journey rather than those who stand or sit looking for it.
Meaning is not what you start with, but what you look for during the journey and end up with. Meanings are not determined by situations, but we determine ourselves by the meanings we give to situations.

Ultimately, one should not ask what the meaning of his/her life is, but rather he/she must recognize that it is he/she who is asked.

Most of the time life is half or almost spent/gone away before we realize what it is and by that time it is too late to live fully the gone moments.

As long as one keeps searching on the journey, the answers will come. Never ever forget/stop living in quest for the meaning of life or because of some unresolved questions in your mind. In the book of life, the answers aren’t in the back. You are to go through the book. You’ll have to take the journey. You will have to live and find yourself. It is the story/journey that matters not just the ending.

Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves.

Do not seek the answers, which cannot be given to you now because you will not be able to live them.

And the point is to live everything.

Live the questions now.

Perhaps, then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.

- Rainer Maria Rilke

Regards

Sudharshan

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JLG

I think that’s ok.
It’s fine. It’s really ok.
Don’t bother much.

How many times you would have told this to yourself. You want everything to go well. You did all that you could. Perfecting everything to the last detail.

And snap!

It all just changed in an instant. As if it was destined to go wrong. We take the best possible steps and measures and it all just tumbles down one day only to find that no amount of better planning would save you for a rainy day.

But you know what?

JLG! Just let go!

That’s my new mantra. Don’t worry. Things will just go fine.
You can’t change the past. You can’t predict the future. Just enjoy the present while working for your future.

We tend to miss so many good things in life during these hard times. I know it’s not easy but would worrying give you anything in return? Except for a sad health and some extra tears!

The best thing would be to focus on the negatives and turn those things into positive ideas.

Find solace in whatever makes you happy. Brings a smile on to your face. Makes you feel better.

Seriously, nothing is better than making your day worthwhile and to the people around you.

Things will eventually just turn out to be fine. You cannot control these things. Maybe it was destined to happen so don’t just bother. You had the best times in your life. These downturns are just reality checks so that you do not repeat mistakes you did in the future.

Network a lot. Get connected to old buddies. Say hi to your old bosses. Spring them a surprise. Enjoy every moment with your wife and kids. Visit temples. Go to parks. Play your kids age. Stop worrying. Enjoy living. And Just let go!

JLG

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